When I was 18 years old, I was living in Israel and attending the University of Jerusalem. Despite being there for my studies, my heart was set on having a dog. I went so far as to take a stray dog and keep it illegally on the porch of my residence. While feeding this dog by leaning out of a window, a heavy wooden shutter came down on my lower back, knocking me unconscious. This incident caused trauma to my spine, but, feeling invincible in my youth, I didn’t get it checked.
Years passed, and by the age of 36, the undiagnosed spinal trauma became a significant issue, especially after the birth of my second child. My back pain grew severe, prompting me to seek various treatments over the years. From traditional methods to alternative therapies, including a trip to Brazil to see John of God, I had tried practically everything to alleviate my pain. Eventually, I turned to Western medicine and started receiving cortisone injections that offered temporary relief. My diagnosis included severe scoliosis and degenerative disc disease spanning from L1 to L5.
By this time, I was receiving treatment at the University of New Mexico Pain Clinic, seeing both pain physicians and a pain psychologist named Krishna. Krishna was a mild-mannered and kind individual, a stark contrast to what unfolded one particular day in November last year. I had been asking God every night to cut me in half due to the excruciating pain. Krishna, known for his calm demeanor, reacted passionately and sternly told me that at my age, I couldn’t afford to have hidden solutions; I needed to act immediately.
My husband, who had read all of Dr. Joe Dispenza’s books, encouraged me to start meditating and engage in the “Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself” meditation. We decided to commence our meditation journey together beginning on January 1, 2016. The practice included acknowledging every instance of pain or negative thoughts and internally commanding change. I repeated “change” as a constant mantra to train my mind. Additionally, if you want to meditate face-to-face with others in Singapore, do check out our Dr. Joe Dispenza meditation events in Singapore.
Initially, the process was grueling as I sat through daily pain during meditation. However, by the tenth day, my nighttime pain reduced from a debilitating nine and a half to about a four. My daily pain levels decreased from a constant four to five down to a two. I adopted a new mental strategy, picturing myself like Gandalf from “The Lord of the Rings,” defiantly telling the pain it had no place in my current life.
By committing to these daily meditations, within two weeks, my pain during the day reduced to zero. Throughout this period, I did not need to take pain medications such as hydrocodone, Lyrica, or Ambien. During meditation, I visualized my spinal discs as large, spongy, and healthy, imagining myself growing taller and free of compression.
Although a later physical revealed I had not gained any height, my sense of well-being and pain relief were undeniable. The key to my healing lay in my unwavering commitment to daily meditation, believing wholeheartedly in my capacity to heal and getting out of my own way. Friends and acquaintances still reach out occasionally to check on me, but I confidently assure them that I am and will remain pain-free, fully committed to this transformative journey.